The Adversary To Us all

Three times I resisted the guardian of my dreams attacks. I have never seen him so ravenous so feral. I felt him search through my memories trying to find access to my will.I can' t recall which memory he found that allowed him usurp my will but he did. But his meal; was bitter with the flavor of my regret and the constant reminder that everyone I know everyone I meet is in trouble. Is afraid and alone. Just like me and if someone doesn't overcome . If someone doesn't wake up. Then we have only begun to see the atrocities humankind can inflict on one another. We have had but mere taste of the malevolence in store for this world and all who tread upon it. Can't you see we are corrupting the earth herself with our thoughts and actions? With every disharmonious act, with each venomous word and remorseless strike we shed blood in the name of hate and for the security of greed. Energy can neither be created nor destroyed.
Just like the positive emotions the negative ones. The destructive ones have an energy frequency and pattern that gets absorbed by the matter around us. All memories regardless of the observer i stored withing matter itself. Our dark thoughts are corrupting the earth. I'm just part of the problem and unless I defeat the guardian of my dreams and free my self from all influence. Unless someone can. Then my family stand no chance, then my friends are doomed to the fate that now hovers on the horizon. Then everyone I meet will see the same look in my eyes that have been in theirs for as long as they can remember. Fear hate, pain, loneliness. No room for love , no room for compassion. Vulnerable to everything under the sun.
I did not fast as intended. I did not complete the purification ceremony. Within my body all the
impurities, all the byproducts of the corrupted still resided within my flesh. Still gave the guardian of my dreams access to my memories and ultimately my will. So, no affinity was gained with the Hieronymus pattern upon my wall. No healing of everyone I know. No manifesting of my spirit guides Ming and Zhou. No Allsight bestowed upon me, returned to me. I have failed.
I have failed us all.

But wait, I do remember something, a phrase, an iota of advice from somewhere.
"The stronger you make your opponent the stronger you will become in overcoming that opponent."
That is the reason why the guardian of my dreams will not concede. He is only as strong as my spirit feels he needs to be so that I might be strong enough to face The Adversary To Us All.