The Instigator And The Reformed Recluse

The instigator, the opposite of the dove in every aspect makes a cameo to remind me that there is always unfinished business at hand. There is always a reason to be combative to mistrust thy neighbor, to not give anyone the benefit of the doubt, ever.
The instigator, is everywhere. Even if one succeeds in placating his rage, his lust for destruction his insatiable hunger for violence. His animosity towards all things peaceful and merciful. Even if the dove has your ear, he may not of your family or friends, he may not of the passerby where his influence is greatest. Where he can antagonize the instigator in you no matter how deep his slumber. No matter how soothing the dove has been. There are old wounds left festering there long before the dove found you. So there is more to it than I could have possibly imagined. There is more to it than just attaining enlightenment yourself and the world become enlightened. The adversary could and should not be overtaken so easily. We have to earn paradise. Our appreciation must be complete. Must not omit a single individual. There must be a consensus if corruption is to be averted. I knew this wouldn't be easy. I know that my heart is pure but not as the driven snow. Not as the mountain stream or the torrential rain. I know this because I am still afraid. I am still uncertain. The last thing I want to do is succumb to the instigator. The last thing i want to do is judge people for what I perceive to be shortcomings. The last thing I want to do is hurt any one's feelings. I can't resolve conflict If I am involved in conflict. I cannot promote harmony if I am a source of discord. But some days I want to find a cave and forget this world exist. Forget all the responsibilities the adversary has integrated into our modern world. Let this planet fend for itself. Let the Masses continue to die at the hands of ignorance and greed. Assume that someone else will turn it all around. Well, maybe that same person is in his own cave somewhere thinking the same thing. Of this I can never be certain. So the cave is no longer an option. I have spent too much time there, already.